crays's angelic blog

I guess this is the only place i would blog about this, I have my dA journal, but when it comes to such things, i guess, this is the only place.

You know when you felt in love with someone and get rejected (well maybe some of you never got rejected before), I always tell my self, maybe she is just testing, maybe she don't have the time, maybe, maybe, maybe, all the maybe leads to a possiblity that she would return the favor. But eventually, most cases, the maybe are actually "Maybe, she really don't like you, dumbass".

I should stop maybe-lizing my decision. Sometimes its just so misleading and frustrating, some really simple words could invoke such great hope. Maybe this is why I am so vulnerable. I told myself to drop it, its not going to happen, but she JUST had to come online and tell me "I have something i wanna tell you so badly ". My stupid drop it plan just crushed and all the maybes and hopes just come back.

The day before she left, she asked me to call her. Again, all the maybes came along, telling me what awesome stuff is waiting behind the door. Actually there isn't anything i guess. Maybe she just doesn't want me to feel that bad. C'mon Crays, drop it already. Please. No point suffocating yourself.